My sexual preferences and ideals

My sexual preferences and idealsHello, i figured i would write a little about my sexual evolution, preferences and labels. First of all i am a 40 year old man, just recently divorced with three k**s. If i were to label myself, i am straight. I love women and pussy. Never any doubt or wonder about it. I am not attracted to guys at all, not in the least bit, never have been. In fact the sight of a mans face or body is a turn off. I couldnt imagine, and never would want to be intimate with a man, kissing, cuddling, etc. Why am i meantioning this?. Well, im not sure but am assuming this has something to do with my sexual evolution. I have a big dick. 9 very thick inches. Love to feel it grow in my hand, love to watch it hang there. Love the reaction and attention i get from girls. Love my big cock. One day many years back i was watching hbo show called real sex. It showed to sexy blonde girls in the bathtub, i thought damn they are hot. Then both of the girls proceeded to stand up and get out. To my shock and suprise, they had big cocks swinging between their legs. I didnt know what to think. Few years down road, i start to check out transexuals online. Specifically big cock shemales. Really turned me on. Just the sight of sexy girls with big cocks was very hot. I am very oral, love to eat pussy and lick and suck for hours. So maybe because of that i had this craving to stroke canlı bahis and suck a big cock. I eventually moved on to huge cock shemale cum compilations. Gained a fetish for cum also. Eventually i had seen most big cock trannys. So with my fasination for big cocks, i started to search any big cocks, guys or shemales. I noticed that the videos of these cocks, getting stroked, cumming, fucking girls, really turned me on. But was only the cocks and cum. wasnt interested in anything else. Eventually i really wanted to live out this fantasy of mine. Of hooking up with transexual with big cock. No luck with that, so i started checking out craigslist mfm ads. Started responding to them, out of curiosity. Never any intention of actually going through with something. I would go as far as setting up meeting point, but then chickening out, either when i got close, or when the guy would send pic of his face. Then i noticed in our fairly small town we have an adult book store. has booths in back with glory holes. i had been in there before along time ago with my wife after an outing at strip club. So i started going to the rooms and watching videos hoping some women would watch me stroke my big cock through the hole. I eventually realized that women rarely come here and it is mostly for men. So i would stop by once or twice a week, and go into rooms and stroke my cock hoping someone watches bahis siteleri me. even though i knew it was a guy it was a turn on to show off my cock. But the guys that visited that place seemed like a bunch of nasty homeless locals. always wanting me to put my dick in hole so they could suck it. but i refused everytime. alot of times they were so persistent, trying to get in room and such that i got turned off and left. Most of the time thinking wtf am i doing that is nasty and i wont go back. But i did keep going back. One time after i had a good drunken state of mind. another guy put his dick in the hole. I couldnt help myself, just grabbed it and started stroking it, and sucking it. I came so quick without even touching myself. was a little turned off and disgusted by what i did. but after awhile it was a turn on thinking about it. Was a little dick though. So i continued to go with not much luck. Untill one day a good sized cock poked through the hole, i stroked and sucked it as it got harder, and after about 10 minutes i tasted cum. wasnt alot. Another time i hooked up through craigslist with a married man. went to his house and sucked his cock. dont want touching or to be sucked. so i layed on his bed, his cock was only 5 or so inches. and he face fucked me hard as i swallowed his cock. then he pulled out and came all over me, alot of cum. Another time i hooked bahis şirketleri up with a couple, was fun. have done that more than once. I also met up with a c.d. in the woods and we stroked each other. I started experimenting with anal, fingers, other smaller items. then cucumbers, gradually increasing size and getting to the point where I can use a very thick 10 inches in me. love to get it warm first and ride it. I can now get hard and cum while fucking myself. Few other non exciting encounters, usually ending with me getting turned off by talking to the guy or cock size. So yeah, srry had to shorten that up a bit. So im still turned on by a nice big cock and thick cum load. Im still searching for that right situation with a normal guy and a big cock. I would love to actually meet a sexy big cock shemale that i can kiss and fuck with all the touching and passion like i would with women. I also would love to be fucked by a sexy shemale with a big cockSo thats my story. most people would say or your bi, or gay, or just havent realized it yet. To them i say whatever you want to think. In my opinion sexual labels like straight gay etc are directly related to attraction. im not attracted to guys nor will i ever be. And just because i like anal play doesnt mean im gay or in the closet. So yep, thats it. Love a nice big cock, love thick cum loads, love riding fat cucumbers. want to suck and swallow huge cocks, fuck and get fucked by sexy shemale. So anyone else feel the same way?Anyone somewhat local to me that has big cock and wants to help me?Let me know, would love to hear others stories.